Why....

I was about to sign-up and it happened again.

Each time when i feel i should give it a shot, somehow this somebody, someone will appear and tell me to back-out. After all the efforts and you want me to stand down?

I must admit sometimes it does have some effects on my self-confidence and worse, draining my spirit.

i dont understand what's the intention and why me..... but i am blardy sure that it fires me up.

Shoooohhhhh..... Go away and leave me alone.....

Why?